So here I am, sitting in my room late at night with a cup of green tea, trying to get my life together. Sound familiar? Surely I can’t be the only lost soul trying to make bigger decisions than their shoulders can hold.
I have just matriculate – with 5 distinctions might I add. One would think that that would make this year a lot easier with regards to “What should I study?”, “Which university is the one for me?”, “Am I ready to move out?” etc. You couldn’t be more wrong. I have spent countless hours crying over what to do with myself. The pressure and expectations are beyond overwhelming. Heaven forbid I disappoint someone I look up to.
Sure, we all have these gloomy days and we all get a bit scared when it comes to venturing out into the big bad world on our own. No one can predict what this year has to hold. Just like a box of chocolates I guess.
I crave adventure. I crave to see the world. I crave to live a life full of passion. Even if I ended up living under a bridge, rolling around town in a trolley and treating myself to worms every Sunday, I would be sorted as long as I am happy and living a life of excitement.
I think young adults my age make life changing decisions for the wrong reasons. Yes, we all want to be rich and famous and yes, no one would mind living in a fancy house and owning a first class car but what’s the point if you drive your Ferrari to your boring 9 – 5 job every morning with your lips curled towards the floor and eyes filled with sorrow and resentment?
Some say I am naïve. Others say I’m living with my head above the clouds. I say I still have a rare fighting spirit – one that hasn’t given into the clutches of our messed up, ever-so-controlling and belittling society yet.
Who cares if you disappoint a friend or two? Who cares if you make mistakes? Who cares if people think you are absurd? I sure hope you don’t! This is our chance, as youngsters, to learn how to live passionately and not just how to parrot phrase the anatomy of dolphins in 3 exotic languages.
Do what makes you happy. At the end of the day, your happiness is all that counts.
If studying is for you, don’t let anything stop you – be it a loved one or money problems. Determinations is a power thing.
I don’t know what I will be doing this year but I will keep you posted.
If all else fails, I’ve been told that the stripping industry is thriving. 😉
Be Brave, Be you*