Emotionally. Physically. Mentally.
I can feel everything I have supressed manifest inside of me. I can only hope and pray that I can keep it in long enough to support those who rely on me. I am being pulled in too many different directions. Too much is being expected from me.
But here I am, slowly crumbling inside, waiting for something to trigger my inevitable explosion of emotion. And yet, here I will remain so that I can be there for those who need my strength. Fear not, do it out of love because I know I am stronger than most but my limit is approaching. Fast.
I no longer know where home is. Something unsettling is happening everywhere I go.
Where is the place I use to call home?
I can only run into the night for so long.
Unfortunately, I am living in the big world now and responsibility often comes knocking on my door.
So please excuse me while I try cope with all these demons eating me from the inside. I know I will come out stronger and wiser. I just need a little time… but something tells me I am headed for a worse hell before I am blessed by the rays of heaven.